A brief disclaimer before I continue. For those of you who adamantly believe that true magick, dragons, reincarnation, and similar things simply cannot exist, I suggest you return to the rest of my site. For those with an open mind, by all means I welcome you to read on.
That said, I should probably begin by briefly introducing the concept of draconity. Draconity is the belief that in past or alternate lives you were/are, or in some other way are connected to dragons. Draconity takes on many forms depending on who you are. Myself, I believe that in a past life I was a dragon. This is what I'm here to write about. If you are intrigued by this topic, Baxil (Bakh-heel) has written an extensive FAQ on draconity.
Thinking back, I became aware of my draconity back in late 1996/early 1997, around the time of my 17th birthday. I'd always admired dragons, but it became almost obsessive. The more I explored this fascination, the stronger this feeling of kinship inside me became. I would get images of my hand and arm being that of a dragon, with long talons and metallic scales. My sense of smell seemed to become more acute. Continuing my exploration of this I would get feelings, almost like a whisper in my mind, guiding me to through various activities that in time began to bring back memories and more sensations. In time, I had faint memories of soaring through the sky on a moonlit night. I would also slip into an unusual state where, not matter how strange and bizarre the events in my life, it all made sense somehow. It was frightening and strange, yet it felt so right. I only wish I had continued down that path.
Then came the fateful year of 1998. I regret two main things from that year. The first, that I wasn't more reserved about who I told about my draconity. The second, for allowing what I had told others to be used against me. From that I am still recovering. I won't go into the details, but I will say that someone who meant a great deal to me at the time used what I had told them to control and manipulate me because I so dearly wanted someone to guide me through this experience and tell me it wasn't all a fanciful dream.
Now, almost four years later, I'm slowly stumbling my way back toward that path. I've lost a lot of time, and almost lost hope. But something inside me screams with indignation when I think of just giving that up. It was a special time of self-discovery for me. And I don't want to think how I'd have ended up were it not for that.
Why am I writing this? Honestly, I don't know. I think I'll blame it on that little whispering voice in the back of my mind that's never steered me wrong.
Yeah, I know, you're probably thinking, "What kind of nut case is this guy? Talking about hearing voices and thinking he was a dragon? He must be on crack!" Well, this "voice" I talk about, though "voice" isn't really accurate, has never guided me to do anything harmful to myself or anyone else. In fact, it's tried to steer me away from all the bad things that I have done to myself or gotten myself into over the years. Perhaps it's just my instincts, perhaps it is something else. Maybe one day I'll know. As for thinking I'm nuts for believing I was a dragon in a past life, see Baxil's draconity FAQ for a better answer than I could muster.
For those of you who don't think that I'm insane for writing this and want to learn more, or just want to discuss draconity, Contact Me. I try to be friendly and open to other points of view. And don't worry if you tell me that you believe you were/are/or are connected to a dragon as well but your version and my version are different. I'm not going to tell you that you are wrong or say that there's only one "true" form of draconity. That's crap and don't believe anyone who tries to tell you what to believe. For anyone who's made it this far through my rantings, I strongly suggest you read Baxil's Draconity FAQ if you feel that any of this applies to you. It answers most questions in far more detail than I can. If you feel more convinced than ever after reading the FAQ that you are a dragon, I also recommend the "Truewyrm" list on Yahoo! Groups (formerly e-groups).
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